It's 3:09 AM on Wednesday morning and as is no surprise, I can't sleep. It's been a good day - a GREAT day actually and my mind is running a million different directions.
I drove past my grandpa's house yesterday, on my way to visit one of his neighbors who has become a dear friend. I've thought a lot about him since then. I can't help but wonder if he's proud of the life I'm trying to live - if he's happy with the choices I've made.
Do you believe in life after death? I do - and I believe that I will see my grandpa again. In my church, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints - we believe that a marriage can last for eternity, not just until 'death do we part.' And if a marriage, performed by one with authority in a temple of God, lasts forever, so too do family units. I get to spend forever with the people I love most - and I love that.
All of that brings me to Chapter 5. I imagine this scene in heaven:
One day my grandpa said to his brother-in-law, my other grandpa, (go here for an explanation of my crazy family tree) "Gayle, what are we going to do with our granddaughter? We have to to find a way to help her out." And my grandpas probably had no clue...UNTIL Jason's grandpa Van joined his two friends.
My Grandpa Gayle - who was very astute - probably noticed that Van looked distraught.
"Van," he would have asked, "What troubles you?"
And Van would have said, "I have this grandson that I'm worried about. He has a lovely fireplace and no one to build a fire for."
And the three grandpas would have sighed...and then in unison they probably had an AHHH HA moment.
Someday I'd like to know how long our three grandpas have been plotting - and then I'd like to give them all a really big hug and say "THANK YOU!!!"
Because friends - meeting Jason is the best thing that's ever happened to me.
Oh and just one more thing:
Amy and Loralee...I LOVE that Jason thinks I'm beautiful...
And just one more one more thing:
Chapter 6 might contain a bit more juice...for you Amy.