I know that you know this...because I'm sure you had a part in making it all happen...but I wanted to tell you that I'm getting married in 3 days. I've looked at the guest list a dozen times and I wish more than anything that your name was at the top of that list. I hope that you'll be there in spirit, but oh how I wish you could be there to hug me and to tell me you love me.
Do you remember when you were the only man in my life? Do you remember that even if I was on a date I called you every night at 10pm? Do you remember how you made me laugh more than anyone else ever did? Do you remember how much I loved you?
I've told my friends a lot about you. I have hoped that by telling our stories I could keep your memory alive. But I don't think I've ever told them one of the stories that means the most to me. One day we were driving to the grocery store and I was kind of quiet. I had had a pretty rotten day and wasn't in the best of moods. When we drove past the check cashing place I expected you to say something about how crazy it was that people could cash their checks early. You opened your mouth, but instead of the routine conversation we usually had you asked me if I was okay. "You don't seem like yourself today and I'm worried. Is there anything I can do?"
I told you that you could buy me an ice cream cone at the store and that would make everything better. And so you did.
That day I loved you more than ever.
Grandpa, you would like Jason. You would tell me that I've made a good choice. He's a good man and he loves me and he will treat me as well as you treated Grandma. In a lot of ways Jason reminds me of you...and considering how much I loved you...that's a good thing. I love him Grandpa. And I'm happy to spend my life with him.
I still miss you Grandpa, and I think about you every single day. I'm so grateful for the years we spent together. I hope that as I move forward in my life, and become a wife and mother, I will make you proud. I hope that I can become the kind of person that you were.
If you're there on Saturday do you think you could whisper "I love you kid" loud enough that I could hear it? If you can't, it's okay. I know that you love me...and that's enough.
It will be a long time before I see you again but I know that you'll be close, watching over us.
I love you Grandpa.