She balanced her checkbook for the first time since 1987.
I am so proud.
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My lovely friend Amy sent me an email with at least 72 questions about my newly announced pregnancy.
Dear Amy, this post is for you.
1. You had a family event for the test?
My mom called me one day and begged...pleaded...for me to come to her house to help my sister put lights on Mom's Christmas tree.
I bought a pre-lit tree for a reason.
I told her I would help as long as she had gloves I could wear.
I am NOT a fan of sap all over my hands, although I enjoy the smell.
She had gloves.
Heather took the front of the tree and I took the back.
During a pause in our conversation I whispered to Heather, "I might be pregnant."
"Why do you think that?" was Heather's response.
That girl Heather, she's a no nonsense kind of girl...she needs facts and proof.
"I'm late," I told her.
"I'm not sure...it could be a lot or it could be just a few days. I wasn't keeping track."
"Buy a test."
"No...I'm probably not pregnant, it's okay."
"Noelle, buy a test."
"I'm going to wait a week, and then I will."
That girl Heather, she handed me a strand of Christmas lights, took my debit card, and disappeared.
15 minutes later she handed me a box and gave me a look.
Heather scares me so I took the box and did my own disappearing act.
I looked at the test and read 'negative.'
I thought it was negative.
I told Heather as much and she shook her head and said, "Let me see it."
"Noelle, you are pregnant."
"No I'm not. There isn't a plus symbol."
"Noelle, I've done this four times. You are pregnant."
And then I passed out, while Mom squealed.
(Okay, I didn't pass out.)
2. How long have you known?
5 days longer than you have known.
I had this debate in my mind.
To tell or not to tell.
I told my family.
Jason told his parents.
And then I thought, "You should wait 3 months...just to make sure everything is okay."
But THEN I thought, "But my blogging world is like my family and even if things end up not being okay, I want them to know."
3. When are you due?
Sometime in August.
4. How thrilled are you? On a scale of 1 to 10, 1 being 'this was not planned and I can't handle it and 10 being 'over the moon?'
Somewhere in the middle.
I mostly don't believe it yet...except there's that ever-present hunger, and exhaustion more than I've ever experienced before.
I told Jason last night that I was scared.
That was right after I told Jason I was going to cry and he shouldn't worry because I had no reason to cry.
5. How are you feeling?
You know, I've been sick for so long this seems like a piece of cake.
It's amazing actually.
All of my other symptoms - the dizziness, the headaches, the general feeling like I would rather die - they disappeared weeks ago and I've felt almost normal.
... as long as I carry saltine crackers wherever I go...
6. Have you been to the doctor?
January 19th will be my first appointment.
7. Do you care if it's a boy or a girl?
In my heart I hope it's a girl.
But that's because of a dream I had a hundred years ago.
That's a story for another time.
But take that away, and I just want a healthy baby.
I have a fear there are two.
8. Does Jason care it it's a boy or a girl?
No, I don't think he does.
He refers to the baby as a girl though.
9. Did he smile bigger than we've ever seen?
No, I think he was sick to his stomach.
He doesn't believe it's real.
I've taken 2 tests to prove it to him.
Although I feel asleep to him listing boy names the other night.
10. Do you feel totally different yet?
I have these moments...moments where I think 'I have a baby growing inside of me.'
'I am going to be this baby's mother.'
'I am creating a life.'
And then I cry.
And go in search of anything that resembles Mexican food...