Tuesday, March 1, 2011

For Those Who Have Been Waiting

Many years ago I dreamt of a baby girl.
In the dream I knew that this little girl was mine.
And even more, I knew that this little one had chosen me to raise her.
In my heart I knew her name was Emily.

I had the same dream three times over the course of a few years.
...and in my perpetual state of singleness, it gave me hope.
"There is a little girl waiting for you to be her mommy" I would repeat to myself.

From the moment I knew I was pregnant, I felt that I would be having a boy.
And if anyone suggested otherwise I would quietly tell myself, "It's not your Emily...not yet."
Over the last few months I have found myself praying to love a little boy as much as I would love my Emily.
As we walked with the nurse towards the room I told my mom, "She is going to tell us it's a boy."
And I was happy with that.

When I realized that it was my Emily I was looking at on the screen, the tears came.
And they've been coming ever since.
Emily, your Mommy can't wait to meet you.

27 comments:

My Big Secret Blog :) said...

Aww! Congratulations, Noelle!

Welcome to the world, little baby Emily! Stay safe where you are. Keep your mommy healthy.

I'm so so soooooooo happy and teary now that you two have met!

Hugs to you both!

Joann Mannix said...

Congratulations, full of love, Congratulations.

Girls are splendid. Take it from a pro.

All my love to you and the spy man.

Yay for Emily!

Venassa said...

Aww congrats!
It's weird that you can have such strong feelings that it's a boy, but it's still a little girl. I'm kind of in the same boat - I want a girl very badly, but I'm starting to think I'm going to have a boy. Only time will tell.

Cox Family said...

We're excited to meet Emily too! Congratulations we're so happy for you!

Sam said...

Ahh! Congratulations!!! This post put the biggest smile on my face! I've dreamt of a future daughter before as well... this post makes me happy :)

Tiffany said...

"Her is a she!!" That's what Sarah said at age two when she found out our Emily was coming.

What a lovely mommy you will be. Love and joy to you both.

Dazee Dreamer said...

Big huge goosebumps. I'm so excited for Emily to join the family.

PS: I guessed a girl last night. And my prize is...........

So excited.

April said...

Congrats Noelle and Jason!

Shan said...

Wow, that's such happy news! From here on out you are my blogging buddy, Emily's Mommy (get used to it, because in a few short years you'll swear your actual name is Emily's Mommy; it's what her friends will call you).

When I got pregnant with Madelyn, I *knew* she was the daughter who'd been out there waiting for me. Not a doubt. With Fynn I wanted another girl, but felt a little guilty about thinking like that and worked myself up to be excited about having a boy. Right before her ultrasound I'd told Tom and Nance (my BFF) that I was fully expecting to see a penis. I was *stunned* to learn my wish had been granted. And so excited. I imagine it's similar for you.

Congratulations again and again!

Nikki said...

Tears in my eyes too! Congrats! I'm so extremely happy for you.

adrienzgirl said...

I'm with the masses here. I cried too. I do that often here though. Mostly happy tears though! :)

Meghan said...

I got teary eyed, that is so great! I am so happy for you and Jason!

Baby Sister said...

Boyfriend says you're not allowed to make us cry anymore. Just so you know. ;)

p.s. a niece!! yay!!

jayayceeblog said...

Woo hoo! I am so happy and excited for you. A sweet baby girl ... named Emily. *sigh* Thanks for sharing your joy!!!

Amy said...

I love it when people are so beautifully beautifully wrong about the gender of their babies. :) Emily is one lucky baby-girl.

Tiff said...

It brought tears to my eyes as well and a huge smile! I love that you are having your little Emily! Besides, we do little girls so well in our family. :) I hope that you are feeling better and if there is anything that I can do for you, let me know! xoxo

Sandra said...

I knew it. That's why I pulled out my pink yarn last week.

Remind me someday to tell you about my waiting for Brandi.

Bossy Betty said...

Happy! Happy! Such a wonderful post!

~ Darla ~ said...

So cool, I remember the same feeling looking at my daughter's baby. Congrats to Mom and Dad and Emily...your parents love you already .... ohhh, goosebumps.

Jami said...

Ooooohhhh! I am so happy for you!!! I know that feeling well. It's like being reunited with someone you haven't even met yet. All blessing to you and Jason and Emily. :)

wjmom said...

By the time you read this, Emily, you will be a big girl. Just know that there are many, many of us who love you and want every good thing for you!

Loralee and the gang... said...

That is SO how I would think in your situation - to prepare myself for 'disappointment' (although in your case, a little boy would not be a dissapointment, just a delay...) and then to be so full of joy when a dream is finally coming true!

Amber said...

yea congrats.!!! SO much for coming up with BOY NAMES. HAHA im so excited!! I knew it was a girl.

Taylor said...

So sweet! Congratulations!!

Mary said...

very sweet!

lvs2dance said...

A sweet little girl?! How exciting for you. Congrats to you both!!!

Kate said...

I can't believe I'm so slow reading this! Forgive me! I couldn't be any happier for you my dear. :)