Sunday, August 7, 2011

Daily Miracles


Last night was hard.
Perhaps the hardest night I've had yet.
Not in terms of physical pain, but emotional.
Jason squeezed next to me in the bed and put his arm around me while I cried.
I told him the deepest aches of my heart and he just listened, and wiped away my tears.

This morning I took a deep breath and told myself that it would be a better day.
Jason and I made the journey to our little Emily's room - in the neighboring hospital.
When we walked in Emily had a new nurse.
Earl has been there with other patients every time we've been with Emily, but this morning he was Emily's nurse.

He smiled and said, "Today I'm Emily's nurse and I get to make the decisions, and I have a surprise for you."
I cried again, but this time tears of happiness.
I knew what Earl's surprise would be.


There is not a thing that could have calmed my troubled heart more.

38 comments:

Dazee Dreamer said...

oh noelle, I have the biggest goosebumps and tears are streaming down my face. That is so wonderful. You look so happy to be holding your little girl. Big cyber hug

Brynn said...

I'm sure that having your arms around that little girl will do her heart and yours some good. Glad you finally got to hold her.

Amy said...

Yea! You both are so beautiful! As I look at her little body, I feel prompted to say such a strong, pure and beautiful spirit is in her beautiful body. And I am so so so happy that you were able to hold Emily! Yea!!

Taylor said...

I am glad you got to hold her! Still praying!

Heather said...

I can't tell you how happy I am that you got to hold your little girl.
I am sure she was just as glad as you were!!

Sam said...

Oh Noelle I'm so thrilled for you! This photo had me tearing up. I have faith that more miracles lie ahead. Xo

Amy said...

God bless Earl! I hope he gets to be "your" nurse every day.

Venassa said...

Aw I'm so happy for you. That must be such an amazing feeling to finally get to hold her.

Rawknrobyn.blogspot.com said...

What a beautiful moment.
Keep faith.
Love and prayers,
xoRobyn

Kristin said...

I just starred at this photo for a few minutes, just drinking it all in. It gave me chills, Noelle, I am so thrilled for you to be able to hold your baby girl!!!

Katie said...

What a beautiful moment. My heart has ached for you. You're in our prayers.

-stephanie- said...

Beautiful. She fits nicely. :o)

adrienzgirl said...

Best day ever! Tears of joy for you Noelle!

Becky said...

You had me tearing up too! You are such a beautiful mom! This is such a great photo of you and Emily!

Shan said...

Three cheers for Earl!!! I'm so happy for you. Holding your own daughter must be the best feeling in the world.

Allison said...

Noelle, That is THE best! Please know that there are many prayers being said in behalf of your little family. We also fasted for all of you today. I'm so glad that you got to hold her!

Mindy said...

I'm so happy you got to hold your bundle of joy!! we love you so much.... and continue to pray for you!! (you look good, by the way).

rika said...

you both look beautiful and you look like a pro! all my love

Amanda said...

How wonderful! Thank you Earl.

le Chef said...

Earl is a smart man. He must have had a good mother.
The best way to heal a mothers heart, and mind, and body is to hold her baby. And every mother knows that that little baby NEEDS its mama's arms. Babies know their parents.
Very happy you got to hold her. I've been checking all day hoping for it.
Tell Earl he has an online fan club of mommies now.

Hang tough little mama. Every day is a step towards home.
((hugs))

And Jason - thank you for holding your wife. Sometimes just having someone listen is all we need. We know not everything can be fixed right away, so don't feel like it's all on you - just be there and understand mommy hormones can be rough, especially with what you two have been dealing with. Emily has everyone going for her.

wjmom said...

Fasting and praying for you all! Give Earl and Jason and Emily my love. And you, of course!

Judy said...

Noelle, you deserve that precious time holding your little girl! You both look wonderful and we are all rooting for your little family.

Susan Ayers said...

Oh my goodness I missed out on the happy day.. I should never go out of town lol... I am so proud for you and your family. I don't know who is more blessed.. you or your daughter.. She most certainly has a family that loves her beyond measure.. Congrats to you and yours.. I will be reading along but know that my prayers have been answered thus far, as have yours. No matter what, she will be fine..

Singedwingangel said...

OH man dagnabbit can I go a day reading blogs without being all teary eyed. I am so happy you finally got to hold her. That is just what you both needed.

Meghan said...

I am so happy for you! Thank you Earl! We continue to pray for your little family everyday!

Jamie said...

What a Praise worthy moment! God put Earl as your nurse for a reason! God Bless you- Nurse Earl! You know how to help heal a mama's heart!

Jason- you are such a Godly husband, and such a blessing to your wife. You deserve a huge hug and a million high fives!!! You are a ROCK STAR!!!

Noelle- Hang in there MAMA...these days are hard and may get harder, but God's Glory is being revealed in baby Emily! She is beautiful and this picture of you both is wonderful and so heart warming!

Emily- We love you and we are praying for you. You lean on your heavenly Father, find comfort in His arms, as He is your Creator, and you will find favor with Him!

Kerri said...

what a wonderful surprise! my prayers are with you all!!

Joann Mannix said...

What a beautiful, perfect picture. Stay strong, my girl. Know that my prayers and love are with you. The joy on your face says it all. Love you, girl. Big hugs across the miles.

emilia. said...

i'm so HAPPY to have this update! yay! what a gorgeous picture!

The thing about your faith is that it's making this situation into something that increases your capacity to love.

and oh! look at that new soul! (a little song for the occasion: here

emilia. said...

p.s. i love earl too.

Cox Family said...

Such good news! Thanks for the updates you all are in our thoughts and prayers. We love you all!

Beth Zimmerman said...

Oh Noelle ... you're BOTH beautiful! And Earl deserves a hug!

Mom on a Line said...

I am so glad that you got to hold Emily!! I remember how much it hurt to only be able to hold a hand or rub my daughter's head.

I also just had the first opportunity to catch up on all of the posts from the last couple of days. I don't know if the docs are still talking about DiGeorge's Syndrome, but I wanted to let you know I am here if you'd like to talk (and that offer will still be available 3 months for now and whenever you have time to think about it and may need someone who understands). My daughter has DiGeorge's Syndrome. While the idea of the 22q deletion can be overwhelming at first, it is all very manageable. I hope the doctors are telling you this.

I continue to hold you all close and hope any infection can be remedied so that Emily can get strong enough for surgery.

I am sending you all lots of heart hugs.

Missy said...

There is nothing better than holding your precious little one for the first time. I'm so happy for you and Jason and sweet little Emily. Prayers and hugs for you all.

aimee said...

That picture brought tears to my eyes. Made me remember the first time I held my NICU baby. God bless Earl, God spoke to him and told him exactly what you needed today. Continued prayers for you, Jason and most of all Emily.

Tricia said...

Yay for Earl! We're still thinking of and praying for you all.

Kristina Carter said...

Oh the joy! I remember waiting 5 days to hold my babies. I think of you often and pray for you as well. I can testify that angels walk the nicu. It is the closest place I have ever felt God on this earth and the lessons I learned there I will treasure forever.

TheBlogWriter8 said...

I want to be as amazing as Earl. Love the picture. Love it!