Wednesday, August 10, 2011

What A Day


Jason wishes he had invented the orange construction barrels.
He thinks he would have been rich by now.

By the time most of you read this our baby girl will be in the middle of her first open heart surgery.
It's been an incredibly long, emotionally draining, HARD day for this mommy...and for Jason, but he shows his emotions differently.

Tonight when the day nurse introduced us to the night nurse she said, "This is Emily's dad.  She has his ears.  And this is Emily's mom.  She cries, but don't worry.  She's had a hard day but she'll be just fine."  
And then the nurse got tears in her eyes too so it made me feel better.

I'm tired and it's way past time to take my pain pills.
I need to process some news we got today about our little angel, and I need to be able to talk about it without breaking down.

If we haven't reached our quota of prayers would you be so kind as to pray for my little one...and for her mommy's broken heart?

I asked Jason to send me his three favorite pictures of the day.
That daddy is addicted to his daughter.
I'll be back when I can.







28 comments:

walden said...

I'm pulling for you...I hope all is well, although it sounds like there might be a crack in time that you didn't want to know about?

I'll text my in-laws because they work in the Snowflake AZ temple and we'll get your names in there, too (I think my cousin Catherine told you they are already in the Mesa AZ Temple). We pray for you every prayer...hang in there. And, don't worry about holding yourself together. You just fall apart all that you want and be as authentic as you feel. Jason...thanks for being the rock for these girls. I hope you're doing okay, too.

Take care...she looks precious and I can see you in her little mouth...what a thrill! Love, A

Rawknrobyn.blogspot.com said...

Prayers are coming.
Keeping faith for you all.
xoRobyn

Bridget said...

Oh Noelle! Prayers and prayers your way! XOXOXOXO Thinking of you lots, wishing there was more we can do.

Amanda said...

Big hugs and prayers. It's a good thing I have tissues near by or there would be puddles.

le Chef said...

Oh hon, there are no quotas for prayers.
I haven't been much of the religious sort the last - oh, 20 years of my life, but I've been making up for it the past few weeks.
You can take the girl out of Utah .....

I see she's off the oxygen; that's a step, at least for the moment. Since it's 2 am here in the Pacific Northwest I'm guessing Emily is probably done with her surgery. I'm hoping all has gone well.
Poor sweetling.

Guys do show things differently; more of "fix-it and it will be better". Some things they can't fix, so that can be hard on them, especially when it involves their baby girls.

I don't know what the news is, and I'm not going to guess. When your ready you'll process it and share what you feel appropriate. Just know that though you'll likely never meet most of us, your little family is important, and whatever you need, we'll do what we can. All we want is for Emily to be OK and for your family to be together, at home, and making memories together.
Whatever it is; I won't say you'll get over it, but you will get through it. Just keep that in mind. It certainly helped me on some of those long, hard days. Sometimes life has its own agenda .. OK, life ALWAYS has its own agenda ... Hang in there. Breathe in, breathe out, celebrate the little victories.
Enough talka-talka from me today.

Keep fighting baby E.

TheBlogWriter8 said...

Good things are happening. Listen to me, carefully. Good things are happening; I know it. You understand?

We're sending shiny stars, tinkling bells of happiness and plenty of good luck to Emily.

Love to you, tough girl!

xoxo

Gene and Sheri Family said...

Lots of Prayers...ALWAYS!! Even all the way inside the Columbus, Ohio Temple! :) She is GORGEOUS...try to hang in there...a c-section alone is hard enough...
Love and Prayers,
Sheri

Singedwingangel said...

Of course you know my prayers are there for you all. she is gorgeous.. I don't know what the other information is but I still know God has heard and is working in His time for His glory in all things..

Mr. Thompson and Me said...

Dear Friend:

Lift up arms. Cross them directly infront of your sore chest. Reach up and grab shoulders. Squeeze really tight. Do it again. And again. And again.

Now imagine it's me giving you a big hug. Hang in just a little longer chica. You are one brave mommy and that angel knows it which is why she chose you.

I love you.

Mr. Thompson and Me said...

p.s. I'm up at 4am worrying about you and I had to read le Chef's comment 5 times to calm down. Best comment I've ever read...

(thanks le Chef)

Dazee Dreamer said...

You know you and Emily are always in my thoughts and prayers. I will especially be thinking about her surgery today and hoping that all goes well. Love you.

Missy said...

The last picture is my favorite. When our second daughter was born she spent 7 days in the special care nursery. She was 5 days old before we were able to hold her. A couple of years ago (she's 14 now) she said, "You remember when I was a baby and you couldn't hold me?..(yes)..I missed you when you were gone. I was floored. There is no way she made it up. She knew that we couldnt hold her because we've told her about her story so many times, but she would've never known that we couldn't be there all the time. I'm sharing this because I hope you know that Emily knows you and Jason, and she knows your love. You're so strong and I admire you. I only know you through your blog, but hope that some day our paths can cross. Hugs and prayers to you all.

Sam said...

She is so adorable, and she looks like her mommy :).

My heart breaks for you when I read these posts, but your strength continues to amaze me. Thinking of you and praying, as always. Hugs.

Mom on a Line said...

I didn't realize surgery was going to be today. I will be thinking of you all constantly. Sending lots and lots of heart hugs. Hoping for a complication-free surgery.

Kathy Giaquinta said...

Praying for all of your hearts this morning in Georgia....

BTW....she is so FREAKIN cute....I know you are a PROUD PROUD mommy!

Kristina Carter said...

We're praying

Lalis said...

My heart is breaking as I sense your emotions in this post. I'm praying! Elimy is in her Heavenly Father's hands.

Bossy Betty said...

Praying for all of you and sending you big hugs across the miles. Stay strong, but never be ashamed of those tears.

-stephanie- said...

What a pretty little girl. She looks strong! Just prayed and will keep praying.

Sandra said...

Hugs, kisses, prayers for your little family.

Take your time, deal the way you need to, process on your time, take your pills, drink some water, try to sleep.

Jason- you go drink some water, too.

Funny advice, I know, but it will keep you both from getting run down and sick.

Did you know you have the most beautiful daughter ever?

A said...

Praying for sweet Emily!

K Trexler said...

I happened across your blog and I pray so very hard for you and your family and especially baby Emily every day. I just want you to know that. I pray God's grace finds you and your family.

Joann Mannix said...

I didn't sleep very well last night and every time I woke up, you were there in my thoughts. I prayed in each waking moment for you all. And I am going to gather my daughters right now, so that we can pray for the three of you.

God is here with you. Let him lead you. He's got your little family in the palm of his hand.

And dear, sweet Emily is one beautiful girl.

Venassa said...

I hope her surgery goes perfectly! There's never a limit on prayers and you guys are always in mine. I love that last photo of her - I can see she looks a little bit like the both of you.

Gene and Sheri Family said...

...."so don't mind if I fall apart, there's more room in a broken heart.." -Carly Simon

Heather said...

She is so stinkin' cute. YOu have me thinking of another.

I am anxiously awaiting what I feel has to be good news for your little family.

Shan said...

Hoping to hear soon how well everything turned out! Miss Emily is beautiful. I can see both of you in her.

Terry said...

Noelle...
The support and love you have gathered from all over is awe inspiring! You are a beautiful woman with far more strength than you know. Keep fighting the good fight. We have been blessed with knowledge that helps us to see beyond this moment...what a blessing that has been in my life.
I love a quote I just read.."I have learned that faith means trusting in advance what will only make sense in reverse." We are praying for you and I pray that you will feel the comfort of those prayers. Love you Noelle!
Terry