Do you want the good news or the bad news?
I'll start with the good news.
The company Jason works for has quarterly meetings, usually in Colorado.
It's a small company...just 5 employees.
Everyone but Jason lives in Colorado, and so it makes more sense for Jason to travel to Colorado than the other way around.
But because of the situation with Emily, Jason's boss flew everyone here for their quarterly meeting which started yesterday.
The good news is that Jason was home for the bad news.
The bad news?
I changed Emily's diaper last night and saw blood.
I changed another of Emily's diapers and saw even more blood.
It was at that point I started to cry.
The nurse, who was new for us, gave me a hug and cried with me.
Later last night Emily's tummy girth went from 36 to 38 in a matter of a couple of hours, and it was then they stopped her feeds, although so far her x-rays look good.
I don't know what plan K is. (Because we've already been through plans A-J)
I'm not sure Emily's doctors know the plan either.
I'm taking a deep breath and keeping it together...that's my plan.
This sight? The way my sweet girl holds on to her little elephant? It melts my heart.