I have these moments where I feel like I'm writing to an empty space...to an audience that doesn't exist.
Sometimes I like that, sometimes I don't.
Little Miss Helmet has a sore above her left ear because of the helmet's pressure.
Until it heals, and until the helmet can be readjusted, she's grounded from the helmet.
Jason is going out of town next week.
He will be gone from Monday until Saturday.
Thinking about how tired I will be makes me want to sit down and cry.
I had a random memory today...one that made me smile.
I'll share it with you.
Would you believe me if I told you I didn't have my first date until I was 17?
And then didn't have my second date until I was in my 20s?
It did a number on my self esteem.
My mom told me over and over again that it was because I was too intimidating, but in my head intimidating equaled ugly.
Here...the only high school picture I can find.
Several years ago I was talking to a friend from high school and he asked me about boyfriends and dates.
I told him the truth and he was shocked.
He told me that the reason he never asked me out was because he assumed I had guys lining up at my door.
My mom took that as vindication.
In high school my dad and I went to Mexico to do some humanitarian work.
At the end of our trip we spent some time in Mexico City.
One night we ducked into a Dunkin Donuts to escape the rain...it was the first time I had ever even seen a Dunkin Donuts.
We ordered our donut of choice and then sat down at a table to wait out the storm.
After we had been there for a few minutes the guy who had sold us the donuts, shyly walked over and gave me another donut.
He smiled at me and then walked away.
My dad laughed and said, "It looks like he's smitten."
I was genuinely shocked.
But that simple act of giving me an extra donut did more for my self-esteem than anything else ever could.
Yesterday I talked with a friend I haven't seen or talked to since my wedding.
He is the closest guy friend I have had throughout my life.
He's happily married with four kids, and has been for a long time.
Once in a while we touch base and catch up.
Last night I told Jason about the conversation and I think he got a little jealous.
That did something for my self-esteem too.
And because you love her almost as much as I do...
Here's my view from this morning: