Sunday, June 1, 2014

For The Three Of You Who Still Read This Blog

I'm so tired of May.


It's June.

I've never been more grateful in all of my days for a month to be over with.
May was brutal.
Long hours at work - even longer hours at home after work - doing more work - and a stack of paperwork so high I may never get caught up.

And let's not even talk about the current state of my house.
Jason ran next door tonight to give the neighbors something and he came back and said, "Their house doesn't even look lived in.  Unlike our house..."

There was a pause and then, "But I'm glad our house looks lived in."

If there is some subtle message there I'm choosing to ignore it.
I did clean a bathroom tonight so that has got to count for something.

Jason will be gone for three out of the four weeks in June - I'm probably going to be coming here the end of June with something like "June.  I'm so tired of June."

If I could have anything in the world?
It would be a nap.
A nap that could last for hours if I wanted it to.

Speaking of...

If I knew the source of this picture I would site it.  I borrowed it from Facebook.

My goal for this week is to return three of the phone calls I've ignored - all regarding meetings and appointments I need to make so that we can move forward with Emily's next phase of therapies.

(Are you going to think I'm a bad mom if I mention here that therapies make me weary?  Especially therapies that we've had Em's whole life - once or twice a month - that as of yet - have shown very little benefit.)

((Can you even pluralize therapy?))

My other goal for this week is to make an appointment with the dentist  - both for me and for Emily.  I've had a temporary filling since last November that has long lost its effectiveness ... with my luck I'll need another root canal because I've put it off for so long.

And Em needs her teeth cleaned, and it will require sedation to do it ... which will require a visit to our favorite children's hospital.  (Are you going to think I'm a bad mom if I mention here that trips to the children's hospital make me weary?)

*See above statement about naps.  At this point even sleeping makes me weary.*

Emily is happy and well taken care of - and that makes up for every other thing I don't get done in my life.
I could post every day for the next three months and still not have shown you every picture I've taken of her that I'm in love with.

I need to do a scrapbook.
Oh for the love ... who am I kidding ...
If I had time to make a scrapbook I'd take a nap.

My computer just told me that unless I plug it into a power source it will sleep soon.
Even my computer gets a nap.


Venassa said...

As I'm reading your post I can't stop yawning.. not because you're boring but because I need a nap too. Hopefully June won't be AS crazy for you as May was. You're definitely not a bad mom if those things make you weary. I think they would do that to any mom.

Mom on a Line said...

I still read! And I want a nap too!!

Most importantly, I do NOT think you are a bad mom because hospitals and therapy make you weary. Anyone who has spent more than three days in a row in a hospital or going to therapy knows they make you weary! Not to mention the emotional strain that always accompanies those appointments! Weary is an understatement!!!

Sending lots of hugs your way <3

Thomas & Alicia Montgomery said...

I still read your blog too! :) Guess I'm the third person, haha, jk. I read an article on Complex Child E-Magazine about Less is More, or something about not feeling guilty about decreasing the specialist's your child has to see if they really aren't helping a ton. Well, we only have 4-5 dr.s we see every 3-12 months now plus therapy's, but anyways, it doesn't make you a bad mom to feel weary because it's perfectly normal!